THE DILEMMA OF A BIG CITY 


  "There’s just something about big cities that can make you feel so incredibly small. They pull you in like a magnet and consume you with ideas and possibilities. Where everything in your life, the good and the bad, shrinks to a size you never imagined it could be. Where opportunities are born and abundance is just an arm’s length away. But all it will be is a vast jungle of brick walls, until you open your heart, your mind, and your eyes." - Jupiter's Corner Episode One


There are many things you learn when growing up and travelling. Like, packing is an art form, or, make sure you set multiple alarms so you don't wake up late and miss your flight...or maybe, that no matter how far around the world you escape to, even if you're an astronaut floating in space, you can never out run the problems you left back home. They follow you. They nestle themselves deep within your suitcase and as soon as you pop that thing open, sure enough, all your worries, stresses and issues will make themselves a home in your hotel room/ airbnb. 

You see, life isn't a game of, 'how well can I run away from my problems', it's a game of, 'how well can I solve them'.

Let me tell you, I know from experience, that travelling isn't the golden ticket out of a dark place. It is a great place to turn a new page though. To get fresh inspiration, ideas and passions. You can absolutely pack up your things, leave everything you know behind and start a new life. Why not? But I think one thing that commonly gets brushed over is how exactly to tackle this wild concept. Say you're not feeling your best. You're feeling empty, lost, unfulfilled. There is often this idea over social media that quitting your 9-5 job, packing your stuff and shipping half way across the world will be the answer you've always been looking for when it simply...isn't.

I believe in taking leaps of faith. Your greatest rewards come from your greatest leaps of faith. So let's say you do take this leap of faith into the unknown, the first thing you must do is ACCEPT. Accept that no matter where you go, you need to face what is clouding your mind. If not now, then eventually. 

I took a trip to Melbourne right after a little trip away to Byron Bay. From beach town to the BIG city. I got the amazing opportunity to have a hell of a view from my room that looked over the city and at night, the whole window would come to life, glistening with the lights of tiny, toy cars and buildings that looked like Christmas trees. I found the days to be care-free, but it's always the nights that will get you. I found myself sitting in the window at some ridiculous hour just in deep thought. Feeling everything, but nothing at all. That's when I repeated the saying to myself in my head, 'you can't out run your problems'. I'd been distracted, but my mind hadn't forgotten or let go. It was in this moment though, that I felt some comfort. As I gazed out at the city, I felt so small, so tiny, and somehow my problems started to seem smaller too. The 20's is that decade of your life where everything is uncertain, confusing, weird. It's that wedge in time where you're maybe not quite where you want to be just yet, but you're on your way, or maybe still finding your feet. It's the time we tend to put WAY too much pressure on ourselves to be successful. But what does that even really mean? 

I thought to myself, 'I can make myself feel ok.' When I first sat myself down in the window,  I felt so awful, so anxious, but the more I sat, the more deep breathes I took, the more my heart started to calm and my mind too. YOU can make YOURSELF feel OK. Sometimes your own company is the best. You can make yourself feel warm and cosy inside knowing that YOU GOT YOUR OWN BACK. 

Think to yourself, 'hey, everything is ok. I'm alive, I am breathing, I am floating in this moment, and I can make myself feel better with my own love and my own care.' - trust in the universe and say to yourself, 'I am here for a reason, I am where I need to be right now.' and JUST BREATHE.

No matter what you may be going through, when those worries/ conflicts start to arise again, just breathe and sit. There's no rush. Just accept what you're feeling, acknowledge it, that way when you're ready, you can let it go. 

It's incredible to experience new places, to open your mind up and gain back those sparks you might have lost. Don't be afraid of the fact that you can't out run things. Embrace it, and know that each conflict you overcome, is an abundance of strength, and wisdom that is gained. 

Yours Sincerely,
Jupiter xoxo

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